So I have never done this blogging thing before. I really don't think what I have to say is important to anyone except God so this blog is from me to Him. Anyone else who chooses to read along, ok, maybe I am not so useless after all.  I always fall asleep praying so maybe this will be more effective for me.  I am so thankful for what God has given me and done for me.  Looking back I can see how He has always been there, taking care of me and my family.  Even though I may not have been on the path He wants me to be, He has never left me.  I wish I could be more vocal about my beliefs to unbelievers.  I see myself doing it but I can never bring myself to actually witness to someone.  Pathetic.  I don't know why I am afraid.  I really do not care what others think of me.  I guess I really just don't feel like justifying what I believe to someone who doesn't care.  I know I am right but I don't care enough about others to show them the way. And here is what I believe: there is a God and he is a trinity made up of God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. Separate but one and all God.  Confusing but Biblical.  I believe the Bible, KJV or NKJV is the completely true inspired word of God.  It's all or nothing. You cannot pick and choose the passages or verses that suit you, you must take it all and add nothing to it.  It is complete and there are no errors in it.  While Christians are no longer under the laws of the Old Testament, there are many lessons to be learned and applied to our lives today.  I believe God has a plan for each and every one of us.  If we pay attention, He will lead us where He wants is to go.  I sometimes get upset at Christians who grew up in a good Christian family and work with Christians everyday.  They have no idea what the real world is like and how hard it is to stand by your beliefs.  To be tempted everyday by worldly stuff.  They have a support system buffering them.  I don't want to be a cookie cutter Christian and I don't want other Christians to look down on me because they think I am not living the life they think I should.  God help me to not judge others so they will not judge me. Help me to tell others what I believe and live in a way that also shows them what I believe.  This world is a crazy place.  I have learned over the years that things do not make you happy.  What I really want is my family to be healthy and happy and close.  Grandkids are wonderful but why are children not. At least mine are not, some of the time.  I love my kids but they drive me crazy.  Grownups who still act like kids, doing exactly the opposite of what they know is right just because their parents told them the right thing to do.  Who treat their parents worse than their friends.  I guess I just keep praying for them.  God help me to do so.